Do you ever lay in bed at night and go over and over and over the same thoughts over and over and over again? I do that, sometimes it’s pretty maddening. I spend a lot of time thinking about what other people do and say, and trying to figure it out. Some people say I think too much, and I can see where they’re coming from.
Then this one night, I laid in bed and went over probably every conversation I had that day. I was wide awake, just me and the streetlights… so I started going over conversations and texts from the day. And then when there was one that kind of bothered me, I would remember another really weird one from before, maybe another argument I had had with that same person. And … I actually feel like I am having that argument over again! It’s the craziest thing.
The weirdest thing is, and let me know if you disagree, it seems like the thoughts that come to you are the ones that make you the most upset. I mean, who sits around thinking over and over about something nice someone said to them? I don’t. It seems to me that, we should try and rethink and relive the things that made us feel good, instead of all the ones we wish hadn’t happened.
Here’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to, if I have insomnia again (and let’s face it — I will) and I am thinking of negative things that have been done or said to me, I will try and think of something nice to think about, or something that makes me feel good. Might as well use this time to feel nice.
-Ramblin’ Midnight Owl